I really can't believe we're almost done with the test group, what we have like 3 weeks left, right? Yikes, time does fly by quickly, but since we have so little time left, we have to push ourselves and each other to finish strong so that we may achieve our desired goals. That's what I plan on doing, I figure if I push really, really hard by the end of this test group I know that I can drop that other dress size I want to. Thinking really really positive!!! If my mind wants it, and I have the spirit and will to do so, then my body will follow. I have to keep telling myself each and everyday that I'm doing this for ME and no one else.
BODY: This past week has been really challenging for me. It's been a really stressful week at work with a lot of staff changes and what not and my body is feeling the stress. I don't sleep as much as I use to because I'm up thinking what's tomorrow going to be like at work. As far as nutrition I haven't been really giving my body what it needs, not saying I've been eating junk food, it's just that I haven't been eating those 5-6 meals a day. There are times when I'm only eating 3 or sometimes 4 times a day and when I get to boot camp, I start to feel the affects. Because I don't want to seem weak, I push so hard that I start to tire quickly and it's really frustrating because I don't want it to seem like I'm not trying. On top of that I ended up with a severe cold and sinus headache. I haven't been giving my body the rest that it needs to recoop from being sick. I'm pretty stubborn and although I know I should be resting so that this cold doesn't linger I've been working out. Working out has become religous to me, it's hard not work out.
LEARNING: I've learned that things don't happen over night like I would love to happen, but David is right it's going to take time and dedication. I have the will and the right attitude to make that happen and I know I'll get there. I have to learn to each and everyday to love myself. Change starts from within and reflects on the outside!
OBSERVATION: I guess with all the stress this past week and me kind of shifting to my old negative self, I never truly realized how many people have noticed how much I've changed, both physically and mentally. I've always said I am my own worst enemy, until one day I actually looked back at all my past pictures and realized, holy crap I'm a totally different person. I'm not that girl that walked into my doctor's office and was called obese. I'm not that girl that use to wear between sizes 16-18, I'm actually a size 10!! well at least for now, but that will all change. I've had co-worker's, friends, family tell me "wow you look amazing!", but I really didn't believe them because in a way I never thought I was going to be able to change. Now I remember why I'm doing this, I'm not only doing this for myself but I'm also doing this so that one day when God blesses me with children, and like Maia told me I can tell them I loved you so much, you changed my life for the better even before you were born!! Maia THANK YOU!!
GOALS: For this week, my goals are to not let stress nor negative vibes/feeling get in the way of me completing this test group. I have to remember to stay the course, stay positive, that change will happen!! No matter what I will give my body the nutrition it needs so that I don't get tired quickly, get the sleep it needs so that I'm not always feeling sluggish and so that I don't feel the need to get coffee. To always Bring it at 200% and to remind myself each and everyday why I'm doing this.
I really want to thank the coaches for pushing and inspiring us to do better, to always bring it and to always remember why we are doing this. I'd also like to thank my fellow test group members for inspiring me as well. You all are truly wonderful people who I consider family and to also thank you for allowing me to share my WHY. It was really hard for me, because it was something truly personal and close to my heart. Thanks for listening! I wish you all the very best and I know we will all finish strong!
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